We all have goals , dreams , and ambitions. We want to achieve our goals, follow our dreams and fulfill our ambitions. This is really what we want. During our childhood and while we were adolescents we daydreamed for hours and days about what life might be if we realized our life goals. We spent so much time thinking about our dreams and goals trying to figure out how we are going to reach them and what the steps we should take to make them come true. The world was so bright and full of opportunities. We had millions of ideas and billions of ways to turn these ideas into reality.
Then, out of the blue, we discover that we became grown-ups and realize that what we wanted was not as easy as we thought it would be. It is not that simple. I was shocked when I realized how difficult it is to make my dreams come true. It takes dedication, commitment, hard work, and sacrifice to make these dreams a living fact. I will have to stop having fun because fun to me is a waste of time. I really have to start being positive. Well, I want to become a translator. That was my dream for along time. I am now 24 and still lacks the skill. The skill to translate something making it a real piece of work. I wanna reach the point when everyone who reads my translation says “That is a work of art”. I want to be that kind of translator. The kind that can transfer messages from one culture to another. The one that can show the others how the people in a totally different place in the world think and what they think of. The one that can be the means of communication between two different kinds of cultural roots. I simply want to be the best and I know that the road is not easy. Translator is not just what I want to be. I want to be a journalist, a columnist, or something like this. I want to be heard. I want to make a difference. I do not have much time. I have wasted enough time and should start taking action. The thing is that bad habits are hindering me. I cannot breathe because these bad habits are suffocating me. They are a circle inside which I reside. I cannot get out of that circle because its walls are so hard to break. I reached the highest point of despair yesterday. I slept today for about FIFTEEN hours. I want to escape. I want to find my way out. I cannot even believe that things have become like this. I cannot believe how helpless I have become.
So, I am not going to say that I decided to do so and so because I decided before and I did not abide by any decision I made. But that does not mean that I will stop trying because by stopping to try I am ruining everything. I am not giving up. Never!
What I can promise right now is that I will try. I will try NOT to be me. I need a full character makeover. I have to literally change everything in my life. Sorry if I am making you feel depressed. I am not writing this because I want to stir your sympathy. I am writing this because sometimes I feel like I have to get it out or I will burst. So, to sum it up, I am not going to stop trying. I will fight back till the last breath because that is what life is all about. You have got to fight till you get what you want. But you should start right now because there is no need for more waste of time.
Posted by Ahmed Ismail 
